I am going to always love you.

Dedicated to the sons I am missing so very much..

Michael, Bryan, Dakotah, and my Grandsons. 

I am going to love you

I am going to love you until

 forever comes my way even

  if you do not want to love me 
too there is nothing that I can

   do and sure it will

hurt and I will be a little

    blue but it will be okay 
because I Love You. 

I am going to love you until 

all of the fires of

hell have

 cooled and faded away when

  the devil is finally dead 

  then buried six feet down underground in a

   unmarked grave as the 
angels sing a song as his

  soul is carried home for 

  just like He who lives high

 above whose love is for all no matter what

 I will always love you even

  if you do not love me it will be okay I

will love anyway. 

  

I am going to love you and it

 does not matter what you

  say, it will not matter to me 

  if you scream, shout, and

 call me names, I do not care

 what you do because I will

  always love you, even if you

   do not want to love me too

    it will be okay. 

I am going to love you until

 the day that I die like I have

  since the first time I held

you in my arms and looked

 you in your eyes as tears fell

  from mine as I heard the

 doctor say, here is your little

 baby boy then I whispered in

  your ear that I will always love

   you no matter if you love

    me too and if you do not it will

     be okay I am going to love you anyway. 

I am going to love you like a

 father always should no

  matter what may happen in

   our lives for we are only

    human beings so mistakes are

 made every day, we will fight 
and shout and scream and you 
and I will not

 always agree and you may 
even say that you hate me 

for things I say or do but I 

will always love you either

 way even when say that

 you do not love me it will be

 okay I will love you

anyway. 

I am going to love all of my

 boys the same as I have

  from the day you were

   brought into this world

    standing right there

     whispering in all your ears

      with tears falling

down holding

       you in my arms for no matter

 what may happen in our

  lives nobody really

 knows anything for sure the 
only thing for

 certain is that I will always

 and forever love you so no

  matter where you are right

   now, whatever you are doing, 
whoever you are with

    I just want you all to know

that I will always love you and 
me always

have and always will even

 if you do not love me too it

   will be okay I will love you anyway. 

I am going to love you no

 matter what you say it is not

  your right to take that away

   you may say things that 

   will break my heart in two 
but I will still always love you 
either way, even when you say 
that I am crazy and you will keep

my grandson from me or that 
you never want to see me

yes that may hurt more

 then you could ever know, and

  you three may have got

   together then decided that I am

    no longer your dad

for reason that are

so very unclear, I will always be

your father no matter what 
you say or do I will with no

doubt continue until my final

 breath when I go with my

buddy death

standing there with Saint Peter at

 the gates of heaven on my

  judgment day when all

   eyes are on me and God

    cries out what do you want

     to say, I will stand up and 
will say "Please forgive me for I do not

      believe that I am worthy 

       because I did not love 

enough you see except for

 my four sons, for I am going

 to always and forever love 

  them no matter where I maybe

  either down in hell or somewhere on earth

  As a human being or here in 
heaven as an angel with my

    wings if gold, so even if you never want to ever

     love me again, it will be okay because 

     I am going to love you all until the 

     end of all time plus a day. 

Dad 

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr. 

A Poet's Journey