Spilled Ink from the heart and soul of Poet and Author Richard M Knittle Jr.

I have been living in a realm where there is no love and nightmares are the reality, it is a place filled with demons of every shape, type, and size where the darkness is the only comfort for the dreams that die living nowhere so the insanity of the sain ones is not left behind, I am just a player in costume and my shadow knows all on the edge of tomorrow where the selfish now rule in a kingdom of yesterday's it is where today no longer calls with deep regret is what fills the ocean that surrounds the bay of sorrow where hope is a rumor that never comes true and strength is the measure for the king to let go of as the queen is the true ruler who hides away in his mind controlling the meek like the flesh of who all died where laughter is outlawed and smiles are a sin as happiness lost joy and the innocent end where one's soul is held under by chains of the heartfelt that no longer bleeds or beats out the life that the light needs to be where sunshine is shining yet the light wi...

I AM A MAN...  I am not really sure whether or not I should hate and despise you cursing  out whenever I hear your name or  idolize and praise you for the masterful  way you destroyed me with all your  evil games, causing me to forever  now hang my head down in shame  while always having to feel the  excruciating pain from all the broken  hearts you have ever caused me, even while you kept on laughing deep down  inside because your sick twisted  mind thinks it is funny to watch  me as I bleed, falling on my knees  while pleading for my life begging  please show me just a little bit of  attention only needing some love and  affection but never receiving anything but abuse of which I cannot even  mention, nothing at all, no kissing,  or touching, not even some hugging,  always making me feel as if I was one  of the loneliest person's alive t...

All i got was you...  You want me to write you a love  poem when you never read any   in the past, well here it is "One  time long ago I thought that I  fell in love with you, the end",  just  like this piece of poetry it did not  last long, unfortunately we did, why? because I believed in that poem and tried everything I could but I never would feel the way you are supposed too in a love poem, I  gave all that I had and then some I loved until it the pain was so unbearable that all I had was  numb I cried so many tears that none will fall again, my heart broke so many times it will never  beat again, i have fallen so deep into to darkness that light now hurts my eyes and i will feel nothing for anyone until I die, love to me is nothing more then a fairy tale full of lies a nightmare  filled with demons that fill my days and nights, you have shown me that what love is a...

The little angel Astrafina I was sitting alone on the couch downstairs one evening after Ryder went to bed, feeling very restless somewhere in my soul and in my head, when I notice a moth flying around I blinked for a split second then the saw the a moth was flying slower, I do not mean as in just hanging around I mean its wings were starting to slow down like time itself was causing everything around me to suddenly go into slow motion until there was scarcely any movement at all, even though I was the same, it did not scare me by any means for I have felt this many times in the last five years so I knew I was expecting a visit from someone or someone's high above, I smiled because I had not seen my friends in quite a while so I waited and waited until I felt something staring at me, so I said out loud "I know that you are here for I can feel the clean cool breeze on my skin coming from y...

5 weeks now at number one on the acoustical charts... Thanks to God and all of you. My appreciation is overwhelming. https://www.numberonemusic.com/charts?geo=local&country_id=225&state_id=44&genre_id=4&query=&my=1&filter_action=1

Hope (A prayer for Ryder) I was sitting alone in the park one day at lunch and I sat on the same bench where Ryder and I used to play, we would sing our songs and laugh and pray while letting the world go by, those were bright and sunny days of just him and I. Then as I looked up it hit me I was staring right at the tree where I carved out our initials for everyone to see, so I got up and I looked but all the tears that were now falling it was hard for me to find anything at all but then I found them and it read “I love Ryder and Ryder loves me”. All of sudden I got a sharp pain in my chest and I fell hard to the ground, it hit me so hard that it knocked me to my knees, I looked all around and saw that everyone was watching so I threw my fist up into the air and I lifted my head up to God and I screamed as loud as I could why me? Why would you bring him into my life knowing how much I would care? I gave that little boy everything I had left to give in my heart, in my soul, all my stre...