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"RIVER OF GOODBYES"  Lyrics by Craig J Burt and Richard M Knittle Jr.  Sung by  Geri Mcclure Music by Geri Mcclure



I am Thankful

With the world these days being such a mess which is caused by such things as wars that are not new but just the same old conflicts, religion that  pray to all the same actors but in different order that confuses  me to no end when they are all supported to be about peace am I missing something here, Politics the left or the right who cares what hand you use besides they are all dicks to me so grow up and shake hands for Christ sakes, which is always on the news on every channel on our television sets and COVID-19  and all the new Hey let's play God human born viruses causing us to instead  of becoming closer to each other now we are standing six feet back  from one another, so now we have mistrust they did it, not me, fear that the truth will come out, the anxiety of what comes next, and so much stress along with our relatively short amount of time and history on this planet, we call Earth which has a very violent past in the first place that stem

One point five million

Congrats! Your photos just reached a new milestone. Collectively they have now been viewed over 1,500,000 times. I am incredibly dumbfounded and grateful in the same sentence I mean it's not a billion but wow... THANK YOU SO MUCH... now if I sold that many books... Lol

My Demons

My Demons  My demons don't hide behind my eyes or some  where in the darkness deep inside or anywhere  you might think they might there is no battle for  my soul or for my broken heart no there is nothing like that at all that's because there is no fight I gave  in to them long ago with all my countless broken  hearts along with failing in this life so I did not feel  the pain that came from every part of my body  or the teardrops that would not stop or the  sadness that was causing madness every  minute of the day and night they stopped your  vision from invading my every thought and  dreams so much so I could not sleep you see  I am the demon out in the open for everyone to see I am an addict that will never change that is  why I am alone and lonely I don't want to  to fight  with the hippicrates who look down and snear  or lie and say they are okay when the still hide in  the shadows to roll that glass li

My music.. Wow

Wow I had no idea... Awesome N1M N1M URL: NumberOneMusic URL: N1M Charts | week 42, 2023 Hi Richard M Knittle Jr. ! Congratulations, Your songs in Hot 1000 N1M Chart! A little southern comfort #6 for Acoustic in United States, Texas  #13 for Acoustic in United States  #57 for All Genres in United States, Texas  #610 for All Genres in United States    Your love is now part of me. #19 for Acoustic in United States Texas #148 for Acoustic in United  States   You gave me.mp3 #98 for Acoustic in United States, Texas  Regards, N1M team Get Maximum Exposure!

My Father's Son

M  y father’s son As I sit here shivering in the cold all alone in the  dark on a floor made of dirt and I wonder to myself  if it is going to be my unchangeable destiny to become  my father’s son, so full of anger and disgust for not  turning out how he wanted me to be, for in his eyes I  am nothing more than a total failure who could never  get it right, always shaking his head when I come into  his sight telling my mother to ask me a question while  he is standing right there in front of me like I never existed what in the hell did he do this time then wallking away  making me feel so little like I just committed some  heinous crime against humanity for just being born,  causing me to hate my life, so then I try to find a different way to escape trying everything I can so that I did not  have to feel the pain now I just want to get high to forget  the crappy life I have lived always making the wrong  choices

Love yourself

Love yourself  People keep asking me how I am doing and where have I been and to be honest with you I have retreated into a place that i have never really been before it is lonely and  it is cold a place where I very seldom think of anybody or anything because it all hurts like hell, I have been taking trips throughout my own mind hoping I will find something.  like a memory of back when I was me myself or who I think I am supposed to be but it has been so long I do not believe I will ever see any of those thoughts again, all the tears that fall now flow free taking with them all the hurt and grief it is my body trying to save itself helping me find my way home before I get lost in the abyss of an empty area that is vast not used that much vacated by love when I lost all my hopes and dreams in my travel down some sketchy paths I have found at least tiny pieces of what is a very broken and shattered slices of my
 Are we really the master of? I have always said that blood or DNA does not always mean family and really is not that much thicker than water I mean take a damn good look at me, I am the epitome of an excommunicated proverbial black sheep of the family and to tell the truth, I am very honored that I am thought of that way, and even my son Ryder whom I fought an all-out war over and who the world and beyond both up in heaven with His blessing and down below, where my battles with my demons are all well-known they talk when you get sent home, knows me as his father even dad regardless of who his sperm donor is, so I sit back and start to really wonder if are we really the so-called captain of our own ship? Do we really navigate through our own time and space? Are we the true masters of our own fate? Or is our life already predestined and no matter what we say or do it will end up the same anyway, what do you think is it luck or fate? Or could it be something else entirely all together? T

Footprints in the sand

  footprints in the sand Somebody once told me that that people will come and go into our lives each one for a different reasons some we meet In passing, never to be seen again some are a little long either for work, like the postman or as short-term friends others are meant to stay a little longer like girlfriends, husbands, best friends and those whom we know our whole lives who come and go like the sun and the moon every morning and the nighttime then we have those that we try to hold on to for a little longer because they danced with our souls at one time or another either way, what I am trying to say is each one of those people we're in our lives for us to learn something, no matter how big or small and to help us grow as human beings and, in return, they learned the same. Then there are the ones we never forget that somehow have found a way to stay in our hearts and souls. They have held our hands as we walked the path together leaving a lasting impression like finding footpr

Even Still

Even Still Good morning sweetheart, I hope and pray that your day is just as beautiful as you are, well, at least you are in my mind along with your pounding heart and bounding soul my wish is you will think about me as long as you, possibly can or at the very least a little while, for every time a memory of you, which by the way is always the vision of absolute beauty crosses my mind I just want to reach out to hold you and tell you that I love you more than there are shining stars up above in the darkness of the midnight skies or how the Aurora dances across the northern sky while your beauty is so much brighter than a hundred thousand suns raging with the heat of over a thousand out of control fires burning a deep-down desire is what I feel on the inside of me whenever I think about you, for all the love I feel for you is one that shall never fade away or even die lasting longer than forever ever will and yes longer than an eternity, which is really not all that

Version two with Wes Smith on vocals Lost Preview



Judgement Do not ever judge me for you have never  been where I have been or seen what I have  saw or even heard  the things I never asked to  hear. Do not ever judge me for you have never walked in my shoes or wore my clothes or even worn the many hats which I had to bear upon my head. Do not ever judge me for the things that I may have said or what I might even say today or maybe  even tomorrow  or what I may or might not have  written now or in  the past present or future as you have never lived in any of the chapters of my life or spilled any of my ink that drips with regret and strife. Do not ever judge me for you have never seen the wars that I now fight or ever fought in any of my battles that I now fight or lost the things I have lost or have forgotten of what I cannot remember. Do not ever judge me on the places I have lived or where I now live in or the cars I have driven or now  drive for  there have been times I have had no place to  live  or a car to drive in. Do not ever


Help I think I need you I need your help right now I thought  I could do this do this all alone all the sadness the  hurt and pain is too much too much for me to take I  believed I believed I would be okay but I am not that's  not okay I am lost I have no idea where I am it is cold  so cold in here as the darkness the darkness never  lets the light come in the dark covers up my eyes it's so  dark so dark I don't even know I cry I cannot see all the  tears falling from my eyes I don't feel the tears falling  from my eyes when I cry as the tears falling from my eyes  fill the room fill the room  in the dark from the darkness  in the cold, I'm not okay coming from the hurt pain from  the sadness of hurting all alone I think I need your help I  need your help to keep from drowning from drowning in  the tears falling from my eyes falling to the floor from  my heart that is broken a broken heart that has been sh


Sometimes   Sometimes when it is late at night and everyone else is  asleep and the only things that are moving is in my head and the pounding of my heart as my mind is going about  a hundred miles an hour trying everything I can to slow it down so I can fall asleep close my eyes and begin to dream all about you and I getting together alone finally with no  one else around our clothes are thrown all over the ground as we smile and laugh and giggle while we whisper about  the things that turn us on as I get a little bit closer telling you how I love you more than anybody else who came before,  which I say from the bottom of my heart as I reach over and pull you in a little bit closer and I kiss you on your lips as I start to write a brand-new poem across your sexy body  that really turns you on. So I tell myself to slow down and  breathe as I watch your chest begin to heave up and down  as I start to spill my ink starting right in the center of your  beautiful breast as I write "Ro


What is a lie: To make an untrue statement with intent to deceive. She was lying when she said she would sleep with you if you helped her out. She lied about her past experience. : to create a false impression. Deceit is the act or practice of deceiving—lying, misleading, or otherwise hiding or distorting the truth. The word deception often means the same thing as a lie and is perhaps more commonly used. Lies Broken promises, broken dreams, broken love, broken arms broken hearts hurt like hell no matter how you broke it or even say it they all hurt the same, the pain though may not be precisely the physical kind it could be emotional, maybe even metaphysical, or a little bit spiritual, even a little of all three, I mean four any way you know what I mean because it does not matter the outcome, it will be the same because time heals all wounds, so they say, and for the most part, it is true it does, but the problem is what I found is even though the pain from physical trauma will fade


Wanted I would have given anything as I  stand here today on the precIbus of my life I have always wondered  what it would have been like to have had  everything that I ever wanted, I mean sure, I have a car that I can drive around town  to get me where I want to go, a home with  a roof over my head where I can fall asleep  on my bed and live, I have food on the  table so I do not go hungry,  clothes on my  back that are new and clean not used or dirty,  a flat screen television I can watch the  news on to see all of the people who have  nothing at all, a dog named beebee who  is named after Bebe Reza and I have four  Healthy sons three grandchildren  oh and I am  blessed that at my age I still have my mom and  dad but the one thing in life that I have never  known and always wanted and I would have traded  almost everything I owned is how it felt to  be loved back by anyone at all, to feel what love