Spilled Ink from the heart and soul of Poet and Author Richard M Knittle Jr.

 Are we really the master of? I have always said that blood or DNA does not always mean family and really is not that much thicker than water I mean take a damn good look at me, I am the epitome of an excommunicated proverbial black sheep of the family and to tell the truth, I am very honored that I am thought of that way, and even my son Ryder whom I fought an all-out war over and who the world and beyond both up in heaven with His blessing and down below, where my battles with my demons are all well-known they talk when you get sent home, knows me as his father even dad regardless of who his sperm donor is, so I sit back and start to really wonder if are we really the so-called captain of our own ship? Do we really navigate through our own time and space? Are we the true masters of our own fate? Or is our life already predestined and no matter what we say or do it will end up the same anyway, what do you think is it luck or fate? Or could it be something else entirely all together? T

  footprints in the sand Somebody once told me that that people will come and go into our lives each one for a different reasons some we meet In passing, never to be seen again some are a little long either for work, like the postman or as short-term friends others are meant to stay a little longer like girlfriends, husbands, best friends and those whom we know our whole lives who come and go like the sun and the moon every morning and the nighttime then we have those that we try to hold on to for a little longer because they danced with our souls at one time or another either way, what I am trying to say is each one of those people we're in our lives for us to learn something, no matter how big or small and to help us grow as human beings and, in return, they learned the same. Then there are the ones we never forget that somehow have found a way to stay in our hearts and souls. They have held our hands as we walked the path together leaving a lasting impression like finding footpr

Even Still Good morning sweetheart, I hope and pray that your day is just as beautiful as you are, well, at least you are in my mind along with your pounding heart and bounding soul my wish is you will think about me as long as you, possibly can or at the very least a little while, for every time a memory of you, which by the way is always the vision of absolute beauty crosses my mind I just want to reach out to hold you and tell you that I love you more than there are shining stars up above in the darkness of the midnight skies or how the Aurora dances across the northern sky while your beauty is so much brighter than a hundred thousand suns raging with the heat of over a thousand out of control fires burning a deep-down desire is what I feel on the inside of me whenever I think about you, for all the love I feel for you is one that shall never fade away or even die lasting longer than forever ever will and yes longer than an eternity, which is really not all that

Judgement Do not ever judge me for you have never  been where I have been or seen what I have  saw or even heard  the things I never asked to  hear. Do not ever judge me for you have never walked in my shoes or wore my clothes or even worn the many hats which I had to bear upon my head. Do not ever judge me for the things that I may have said or what I might even say today or maybe  even tomorrow  or what I may or might not have  written now or in  the past present or future as you have never lived in any of the chapters of my life or spilled any of my ink that drips with regret and strife. Do not ever judge me for you have never seen the wars that I now fight or ever fought in any of my battles that I now fight or lost the things I have lost or have forgotten of what I cannot remember. Do not ever judge me on the places I have lived or where I now live in or the cars I have driven or now  drive for  there have been times I have had no place to  live  or a car to drive in. Do not ever

Help I think I need you I need your help right now I thought  I could do this do this all alone all the sadness the  hurt and pain is too much too much for me to take I  believed I believed I would be okay but I am not that's  not okay I am lost I have no idea where I am it is cold  so cold in here as the darkness the darkness never  lets the light come in the dark covers up my eyes it's so  dark so dark I don't even know I cry I cannot see all the  tears falling from my eyes I don't feel the tears falling  from my eyes when I cry as the tears falling from my eyes  fill the room fill the room  in the dark from the darkness  in the cold, I'm not okay coming from the hurt pain from  the sadness of hurting all alone I think I need your help I  need your help to keep from drowning from drowning in  the tears falling from my eyes falling to the floor from  my heart that is broken a broken heart that has been sh

Sometimes   Sometimes when it is late at night and everyone else is  asleep and the only things that are moving is in my head and the pounding of my heart as my mind is going about  a hundred miles an hour trying everything I can to slow it down so I can fall asleep close my eyes and begin to dream all about you and I getting together alone finally with no  one else around our clothes are thrown all over the ground as we smile and laugh and giggle while we whisper about  the things that turn us on as I get a little bit closer telling you how I love you more than anybody else who came before,  which I say from the bottom of my heart as I reach over and pull you in a little bit closer and I kiss you on your lips as I start to write a brand-new poem across your sexy body  that really turns you on. So I tell myself to slow down and  breathe as I watch your chest begin to heave up and down  as I start to spill my ink starting right in the center of your  beautiful breast as I write "Ro

What is a lie: To make an untrue statement with intent to deceive. She was lying when she said she would sleep with you if you helped her out. She lied about her past experience. : to create a false impression. Deceit is the act or practice of deceiving—lying, misleading, or otherwise hiding or distorting the truth. The word deception often means the same thing as a lie and is perhaps more commonly used. Lies Broken promises, broken dreams, broken love, broken arms broken hearts hurt like hell no matter how you broke it or even say it they all hurt the same, the pain though may not be precisely the physical kind it could be emotional, maybe even metaphysical, or a little bit spiritual, even a little of all three, I mean four any way you know what I mean because it does not matter the outcome, it will be the same because time heals all wounds, so they say, and for the most part, it is true it does, but the problem is what I found is even though the pain from physical trauma will fade

Wanted I would have given anything as I  stand here today on the precIbus of my life I have always wondered  what it would have been like to have had  everything that I ever wanted, I mean sure, I have a car that I can drive around town  to get me where I want to go, a home with  a roof over my head where I can fall asleep  on my bed and live, I have food on the  table so I do not go hungry,  clothes on my  back that are new and clean not used or dirty,  a flat screen television I can watch the  news on to see all of the people who have  nothing at all, a dog named beebee who  is named after Bebe Reza and I have four  Healthy sons three grandchildren  oh and I am  blessed that at my age I still have my mom and  dad but the one thing in life that I have never  known and always wanted and I would have traded  almost everything I owned is how it felt to  be loved back by anyone at all, to feel what love 

  Old songs I was driving down the highway listening to  the radio all alone like I always am going nowhere  in particular, trying to clear my head with a  change in scenery with the windows rolled up  singing at the top of my lungs songs like 1985 by Bowling for Soup anything by Blink-182 and Salt -N-Pepa Shoop minding my own damn business  and not bothering anybody else when the radio  stopped playing I looked down hit the on-off button  a couple of times but nothing at all it was dead I  thought I must have blown a fuse so I yelled shit then I slammed my hands down hard on the steering  wheel yanking the car to the right and pulling over  to the side of the road slamming my brakes and  skidding to a stop, I closed my eyes and took a huge  breath thanking God that it was only me on the road  then I heard a tune faintly at first, begin playing through  the speakers and it was not coming from my radio I  opened my eyes looking around it was darker than I  remembered I rolled down my w

  Poetry is all the memories of our past, the tears we shed today, and our thoughts and dreams of tomorrow. Poet Richard M Knittle Jr. A Poet's Journey

  Love takes a lot of time along with patience hard work and understanding to cultivate nourish and grow just like a garden, that is the reason it is so hard to find today because people do not want to work that hard or take the time to stop and smell the flowers. Poet Richard M Knittle Jr. A Poet's Journey

I FIGHT It seems to me that we are fighting a war from the day we are born even conceived everyday just to stay alive and I  for one am just a little tired of  needing to fight some sort of battle every single day of my life.  I fight to wake up in the morning  I fight to go to sleep at night  I fight to have dreams instead of nightmares when I close my eyes I fight to stand up for what I believe in I fight against what I don't I fight just to find something to eat  I fight to pay all my bills on time I fight to pay rent  I fight to find a job that will pay what I need and one that I like I fight for a day off from this war sometime I fight to stand my ground  I fight my dremons that live inside of me  I fight for the knowledge to know how  I fight for freedom from oppression  I fight to free my mind  I fight because uncle Sam asked me to  I fight just to be found  I fight for all my sons whom I miss

I love you more I just wanted you to know that whenever I s ay to you that "I love you  more" I do not mean I love you more than you love me, it means I love you more then any bad times that are a head of us, it means I love you more than any fight we will ever have, even  more than the distance that is now between us, it means I love you more than anybody or anyone who might try to get between us I will love more than all the stars above you as in always and forever and nothing will ever change that, it means that I have loved you since the first time I saw you, and It means  I will love you until the ends of time it means I love you from the time I wake up for the day until the time I go to sleep at night where I will love you more in all of my dreams, it means I will Iove you more then all than the sun burns bright and I will  Iove you more than all the tears that shall fall from our eyes, it means

I have said most of my life is the only regrets I have was for all the decisions I never mad but I was wrong I ain't gonna lie I have many regrets in my life made my share of mistakes I should have said no more often and yes in more situations should have looked right instead of left should of went to bed instead of staying up had a few less whiskeys and few more wines should have walked away more times then stood my ground I should have said I love you more to the ones I loved should of lusted less when I had to much fun should have listened more to my heart and soul instead of listening to my second head who always played the fool, I should have listened to my parents growing up spent more time with them before their time runs out should have gotten closer with all my kids instead sitting here wishing I did I can say I would do things different if I had the chance sorry that's another lie in this short life we dance. Poet Richard M Knittle Jr

Here is to all the lonely people: Here is to all of those lost and lonely people who have been living their lives trapped in a world of darkness in a deep sadness with the feeling as if they were all alone, no matter what they were doing, where they are, and who it is that may be around, whose cries for help go unanswered, every single night and through out the day coming from all of their cries and screams that never make any sounds, the ones who are living somewhere in their nightmares where their hopes and dreams will never be found, here is to all the lost and lonely people who have lived locked away while chained within their own minds caused by some sort of mental illnesses where diagnosing is sometimes hard to find. Here is to all the lost and lonely people who live in a agonizing pain twenty-four hours a day coming from all the scars of a broken heart that will never be the same, who have lost a battle of finding love in loves war that rages on. Searching their whole lif

I love you more You may not know it yet but you will one day because I love you more than when the sun sets and the moon rises over us while we are laying on a blanket on the sand underneath us making love by the fire at the beach. Yes it is true I love you more than all the stars in the skies at night I love you more than you think I might I love you more than time itself with forever as a start I love you more every day no matter where you might be at I love you yes even more than you could ever see I love you more than the highest mountain peak I love you more than the deepest blue sea I love you longer than the longest yard I love your body from your head to your toes I love your mind, heart, and soul I love you more than anyone until the day I die then I will love you more from down below or way up high I love you more than when the lights are on I love you more when the lights go off I love you more in your dreams when you sleep at night I love you more and more after every fight

https://www.facebook.com/rknittle/posts/pfbid031FHFxtd9uXQvFHBSEpeG8TvAoWUN4M1CY38oiwtdXARa4wAqURU1gjfUfhPnBkrml?notif_id=1674009306143328&notif_t=feedback_reaction_generic&ref=notif My post have all been pretty pathetic lately pretty much about what I don't have or who I don't have in my life what I need to do is understand what I want from what I have to what I need, what I need is to know is what I have is already what I want and need. I'm lucky and blessed that I am 57 and still have my mom and dad who have been married 57 years not all of them great years but nevertheless, I see them every day since I have a roof over my head living in their house and food in my mouth with plenty to drink. I have four sons three of them men who are not addicts and are better than I will ever be and never been in jail and provide for their families and I am proud of them; I have a job that I get to work from home, a car that's reliable, and Ryder who surprises me every day w

  Maybe wishes come true Maybe one day when you are standing right here next to me I will reach up into the night skies a catch a falling star so we could both make a wish upon it and when we were done close our eyes and I would throw that star as hard as I could into the sky and let it fly back to where it had been once before, shining its beautiful light down upon the very spot you and I were standing, transforming the surrounding night to light up like a thousand fireflies all around us while we are staring into each other's eyes as it seems right out of a dream as my wish I believe is coming true taking me back in time to when I was at my finest right before your eyes causing your knees to go weak and your heart starts to beat as your soul reaches out to mine just as my soul reaches into yours and they begin to dance slowly together up around the moon and stars above holding onto one another tightly deep into the night when they started making love while listening to the sound