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Poetry, Cell Block C, Rent, Addiction, New song called "Lost"

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I died alone

I never believed in a higher being so six years ago I took my own life, what I saw, heard, smelled was something that can never forget, I had lost everything and everyone I was closest to at the time but God and my three friends decided it was not my time and sent me back down here, I now believe in God and his angels.

I died alone


I died alone all by myself just missing my
lost son, I had nothing left I had given up
the darkness it had won. The things I saw
I never thought I would and could not believe
my sight and then I heard Ryder’s cry he
woke me every night, I jumped up to find him
and I ripped that room apart as I pulled
myself together I felt a warmness in my
heart three people I had loved in my life
and very special to me were waiting as
I woke each whispering thoughts to me,
what they say I cannot speak but I write it
down every day for I write a journal of my
life for others that cannot say. Michelle
was in my life not long and left us way
too soon you were smiling and beautif…

I will be there with you

Written for a friend of mine

I will be there with you

When I went to bed last night I started thinking
about you again and tears began falling from
my eyes, you left me all alone and by myself
before I could truly let you know how much
I loved you or to kiss you so I could say goodbye.
I know that you are watching me and that you
will never be all that far for our souls are still
dancing close together to the beating of my
heart. I dream of you whenever I close my
eyes and I still feel you like you are holding
me tight in your arms like you used to late
every single night. Darling, please do not
worry about me for I will be there with you
when God lets me know that it is my time,
then we will hold hands again while we fly
with our pretty angel wings through all of the
beautiful clouds high above in the sky. I can
still, remember the very first time that our eyes
had ever met and even after all these years
that we were together I have never had even
one regret. One day I may need to move on
i…

A blind man cannot see

A blind man cannot see

A blind man cannot see what your race is
or the color of your skin, so I started thinking
that maybe we should all be blind so that we
can start to and try to understand where it
was all of this hate and resentment that we
have against each other had really started and
when it might end. We are all stuck living here
together on this rock that revolves around our
sun with one moon, we are all of one race on
this one planet it is called the human race, do
you all not wonder why it is we all cannot just
get along? I often wonder to myself since we
are all stuck here on this little planet, fighting,
hating, stealing, raping, hurting, killing one another,
why cannot we just stop it and instead all
have some fun. We have babies being born
around the earth everywhere each and every
single day, only filled with innocence and love
so why must we teach our children to hate and
violence? Why must they learn to kill off all
the white doves, we have wars and are fighting
everywhere ov…

Hope (a Prayer for Ryder)

Hope (A prayer for Ryder)
I was sitting alone in the park one day at
lunch and I sat on the same bench where
Ryder and I used to play, we would sing our
songs and laugh and pray while letting the
world go by, those were bright and sunny
days of just him and I.
Then as I looked up it hit me I was staring
right at the tree where I carved out our initials
for everyone to see, so I got up and I looked
but all the tears that were now falling it was
hard for me to find anything at all but then I
found them and it read “I love Ryder and Ryder
loves me”.
All of sudden I got a sharp pain in my chest
and I fell hard to the ground, it hit me so hard
that it knocked me to my knees, I looked all
around and saw that everyone was watching
so I threw my fist up into the air and I lifted
my head up to God and I screamed as loud
as I could why me?
Why would you bring him into my life knowing
how much I would care? I gave that little boy
everything I had left to give in my heart, in my
soul, all my strength …

My Epitaph

I would like this to be my epitaph and read at my funeral, please. 
I was not afraid of life or death but of only being alone, and I am not frightened to go I am not scared at all for I will finally be back home.
To my fellow Poets, we shall not ever say goodbye, for our souls will never leave as we will remember each other until the ends of all eternity. Even though the pages that we write may change or even sometimes disappear, all of the ink that we spill every day of our lives and in death, comes from the same well, as we will always share, so remember that every single drop that falls no matter where we are or when will all flow back together until we meet up yet again in the end.
Live, Love, Life, in poetry forever.
To my fans, friends, and family thank you for everything you have done for me especially all the likes and comments, your emails, text, and messages with all the words you have written for me has kept me alive by keeping a spark in my soul making my heart smile so now as…

I have risen

Hate is very ugly to look at it will weigh you down, consuming everything about you until you are covered and buried underneath it.
I have risen
I have risen up from out of my prison built out
of sorrow, misery, and pain, where I have been
locked away and forgotten in the cold and bitter
darkness that surrounds me, so lonely and
frightened from the days back before yesterday
through all of my many tomorrows, until today,
no, as I have finally got a way to be free, for God
in all of His Glory has given me the keys which I
have been missing, to unlock all of the lies that
have chained me made by my own guilt in the
false truths that I now hideaway while blaming
all the others for what was living and breathing
in my own mixed up and twisted mind where an
evil lives and hides among all the good that I have
inside, as it started out slowly even diabolically
methodically killing off all of who it is I ever was
by taking away everything I had than anyone I
have loved including my own children whom I
miss and lo…

Life

Life
As the sun started rising up
causing a beautiful reddish-gold
color in the morning skies
a single teardrop formed then
fell from the corner of my eyes
as the many thoughts of you and
others started running through my
head and it was at that very
moment that I had come to realize
that as people come and go in
and out our lives, they touch
us all in different ways than
any have before, some of them
will teach us, love, while others
teach us to hate but it is the ones
that you remember most that will
last forever as a piece of who we
are and become either way
whether you meet by chance
or maybe even fate, you learn
from one another through
all of your mistakes and when
it is finally over and we reach
the very end, we look back
upon our life at all our enemies
and friends, hoping we made
all the right choices, I believe that
the ones who win in this game
in which we call life, is the
ones who leave this place with
a peace at heart filled with nothing
but love no regrets with aspirations
To inspire as many people as …

Two Hearts Beating

Two Hearts Beating
Two hearts that are beating as one pounding out
the rhythm of a song about love. Two minds that
are thinking like one knowing that they love one
another through all of the bad times and all of the
fun. Two souls that are connected until the very
end loving one another with love is all they send.
Two bodies together as if they were only one making
love forever never will it end. You and I are lovers
that are reaching heights unknown together and
ascending evermore, never again will others feel
this way as we become legends, stories, and lore
knowing we are a couple until all the time is gone
and with how we feel about each other how could
this be wrong? When I put that ring on your hand
know it was for life I never imagined the love we
would share as I, your loving husband and you, my
beautiful wife.
Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.
A Poet's Journey

Another one bites the dust

So you know my story here is another chapter.
Another one bites the dust
you may not have been the perfect
mother but you were a hell of a lot
better than I was a father but to
tell the truth I was really not all
that bad, I may not have been
there as much as I should have,
I was doing the best that I could
at that time working hard breaking
my damn back just to make a
dime trying hard to show my
boys that I was not a loser but
became one just the same in their
eyes anyway, meeting someone
new hoping they were the one
then find out just a few years
later that they lied and cheated
and another one down and
another one down another one
bites the dust hey I cannot help
the way I feel giving away all my
love than falling hard and fast
then getting married because of I
cannot be lonely when she asks
but it never does last, causing
an emotional breakdown
every time a relationship fell
apart and the more my heart
would tear breaking so many
times that I lost count so now
It is beyond repair. Now I have
three very ungratefu…

Life perseverance

Growing up down here on this planet
is really tough it is a constant battle
every day just trying to make it through
we are always having to make tough
decisions like what to eat where should
we live who do we love should we
hate and why using only the little bit of
the knowledge that we have gathered
to understand what is right from wrong
and you only have a fifty-fifty chance so
let me try to help you out. First of all
you really do need to live for yourself
before you give to anyone else or this
life will tear you down as in wear you
out reak quick. See if I have learned
anything in this life at all that I have
lived up until now are just a few things
you need to know and always no matter
what try to remember so will make it
through is that no matter what anybody
says or does the only thing that ever
really changes I mean if anything
changes at all would be time itself
so try not ever sweat the small stuff
or it will eat you up from inside, also
and let me make this clear; cheaters
wil…