Showing posts from 2021

I am only human

  I am only human, so yes, I will cry out in pain when I am hurt or sad or so joyful about that it touched me deep down to my soul, I weep for others whom I cannot help like the many homeless who are living on the streets just trying to find some shelter out of the cold even food and drink some have mental health issues which more than likely will never find a cure while others are addicts who will either figure it all out and climb out while others like some whom I know I am sad to say will not and this evil disease will take another friend or even someone in my family for sure while others wander with nowhere to go, yet still they are invisible to the world and even within themselves because maybe a child has died causing a full mental breakdown. I know it would happen to me or maybe lost the only job they ever knew or laid off still, just forgot who they were, a hero once who came back from a useless war lost somewhere inside of themselves fighting some enemy who is not there whose

Tis better to have loved

  'Tis better to have loved I just wanted you to know that I will always and forever have a love for you in my heart and deep down in my soul. Even if you walked away for whatever reasons you may have, as I will still continue to love you anyway, no matter how you may feel about me because I have loved you long before we got together and will continue to love you long after I am gone. I mean, after all, you made a dream of mine come true when you called me and ask me to marry you, they say 'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all and you know what? It is true for I never in my life believed that I could ever love again, but I was so very wrong, for you have shown me genuine love is supposed to be as my friend, my muse, my wife and lover too, you have reached in and awakened much more than you may ever know when you danced with my soul that day at the lake outside at midnight in the rain and you are the wishes upon my falling star, that came true you ha

Shades of Blue is my 20th book

  Congratulations on your 20th book your paperback, "Shades of Blue," is available to buy on Amazon. If you republished your book, your changes are now live. Sometimes in your life, you meet someone special that changes everything you thought you knew about love. They may be younger or older from different religions or races. It does not matter how, why, or when. They bring a smile to your face when you had none before lighting up the darkness that you're living in. Your heart will race and your mind opens up to the distinct possibilities of anything you may have wished for or dreamed of. They inspire you to write the most beautiful love poems anyone has ever read. You feel young and alive around them. You love them in ways beyond your comprehension. Your hearts beat to the same tune as your souls are out dancing in the rain. She was and is my Muse, my friend, my lover. I dedicate this book to her.


The next two months we will see the suicide rate climb faster than any other during the year, the holidays are the most loneliest for those who are depressed as it is. If you have elderly or sick neighbors please take five minutes and check on them look at them and smile for a smile may not save the world but it would go a long way in saving theirs. Please call the number below if you or someone you know wants to harm themselves or somebody else.  The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 800-273-8255 Demons These demons I fight I know are for real from the scars on my heart to the pain that  won’t heal I lay in my bed but at night I am  awake for the dark ones have taken all of  my dreams to forsake, my fate has been  sealed and with God's help I tried but I feel  as if my world is now over as It fell to  their side I fought with the courage of His  only son but at the end of the battle I was  still only one my life has been n


You know that lump on the back of your throat you get when you know that when you drop her off it will be the last time you will ever say goodbye, wishing it would have been different but knowing it was the same, tired of all the games being played, believing they were a friend or even more ignoring all the signs, just giving her a little more time it will be different but it never is even someone you may have known for a very long time so what is so fucking wrong with this world today people dying more each day it seems as if this generation is not gonna save the world they are all to damn lazy to even get a job instead living day by day begging everyone for money drugs food and a place to stay never paying for bills to busy frying their brains with perks only looking for thier next fix trying to pull all those licks stealing anything they can lift lying about everything they did do or done while the girls are all looking for thier next tricks what is going on with the world it seems

I want to be

  I want to be Hey Baby, I just wanted to leave a note so you would know how much you mean to me, and even though I know we had not seen each other in a couple of years. We always wrote to each other, keeping up with one another always fanning a spark that is now a fire and love is always a gamble, but with you, I will place that bet even though it may be way too early for some. I have already. fallen deeply in love with you again, so now I want to be that memory when you are all alone, you know, the one that makes you smile when you hear your favorite song, that one you roll the window down to when the sun comes out to warm your heart and soul on a cold winter's day, I want to be the memory that you think about when you and all your friends are out, wondering why you have those sparkles in your eyes and that grin on your face when you remembered the lake. I want to be the one you feel when you are all alone in bed at night. Who makes you feel all right with just the scent of me st

Innocent eyes

Innocent eyes Intimate moments like making love I am afraid do not come along very often for me, for I have not felt the soft loving touch of a woman in I cannot tell you for how long or a kiss upon my lips to keep me warm from the fires that will burn even higher and hotter then the sun or the moon, I go to sleep all alone in a bed that was built to be big enough for two as the only women that I ever see are when I close my eyes at night to fall asleep then only waking up soaked in a pool of sweat from all the heat of a passion of you and I making love, all night long wishing I could stay never going home, then when I wake up in the morning before the coming of the dawn from a brand new rising sun as I reach over just to hold her then realize something is wrong so I reluctantly turn my head slowly just to find that nobody is there, then once again I can feel a the teardrops begin to form remembering all of those beautiful memories back in a time when I once had it all, recalling all o


Dedicated to someone I am missing very much tonight whom I wonder is she missing me too. Intoxicating Your very essence is intoxicating to me causing me to become drunk by your beauty as it is always on my mind causing me to think about every inch of your body as I undress you ever so slowly while a blindfold covers your eyes, so that as my pen drops the ink that now covers you as it writes a story of what you do to me starting on the back of your neck where my lips start a journey of an unimaginable understanding feeling your warm soft skin ever so gently kissing the nape of your neck than ever so quietly whispering all the words that tell you what is coming next just as my hands come up from behind you exploring your beautiful bare breast feeling them as they rise and fall with your every breath while your nipples become erect as my lips continue to tickle behind your ear as you feel the tip of my pen brush up against your lower back, causing you to let out a loud sigh that heats the

I prefer the beauty

  My life used to mean something I was tan, skinny had tattoos and piercings a friend you could count on and for some reason always getting hit on by younger women no dumbasses not children but right now as it stands today. My life kinda sucks right to its core, as there are haters out there who are just jealous and talk out their ignorant thrown-off asses and say that I have Become a sick, twisted, perverted old man. What the hell have I done? It is not like I ask for anything or stare it is quite the opposite I swear it is because I am a good person who treats women with lots of respect and compassion most of the women that are my age are a little boring, not all of them, wrinkled, and wear moo moos way too small, not all, but some. Is it my fault? That I prefer the. beauty of a woman who is half my age they have soft skin, perky breasts, and are not afraid to f#$& Oh excuse me, I meant to say making love without bitching about everything under the sun first. The shy, innocent s