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Your very essence is so very intoxicating to me that it causes me to become drunk by  your beauty as it is  pumped from a pounding heart causing my  pen to embark on a whole new verse that  reads making love to you is all I want to do  from when the sun goes down until it rises up again then the night falls and dark  is all around the stars light our path like  fireflies by the sand and the moon begins  the glow showing us where we need to go  as tears and sweat fall from our bodies  become one lost in time our hearts pounding hard beating out the melody of who and  what we are while our souls are  holding on  to the others hand in hand dancing through  the skies where no one has ever been searching  for eternity through the ocean of forever while we are here and now together until the ink runs dry just as you and I become lost in one another’s eyes paralyzed by all that we will be at the precibus of our life as you and I where death  has no meaning as life is the beginning where the end never comes …

it was the best of times

"The Best Of Times"

Tonight's the night we'll make history, honey, you and I And I'll take any risk to tie back the hands of time And stay with you here tonight I know you feel these are the worst of times Baby I know, you wouldn't have to cry I do believe it's true When people lock their doors and hide inside Rumor has it it's the end of Paradise But I know, if the world just passed us by The best of times are when I'm alone with you Some rain some shine, we'll make this a world for two Our memories of yesterday will last a lifetime We'll take the best, forget the rest And someday we'll find these are the best of times These are the best of times I do believe it's true


         Charles Dickens wrote "It was the best of times,  it was the worst of times" but to tell the truth of the matter for me, it seemed anyways that it was nothing  more than a time that was filled with chaos and much  confusion and of course cha changes when your frien…

The little angel Astrafina

The little angel Astrafina

I was sitting alone on the couch downstairs one evening after Ryder went to bed, feeling very restless somewhere in my soul and in my head, when I notice a moth flying around I blinked for a split second then the saw the a moth was flying slower, I do not mean as in just hanging around I mean its wings were starting to slow down like time itself was causing everything around me to suddenly go into slow motion until there was scarcely any movement at all, even though I was the same, it did not scare me by any means for I have felt this many times in the last five years so I knew I was expecting a visit from someone or someone's high above, I smiled because I had not seen my friends in quite a while so I waited and waited until I felt something staring at me, so I said out loud "I know that you are here for I can feel

My story too

My story too

As I sit here again right next to you
and look up and down at your beautiful
body, the ink starts to flow freely filling
up my Poets pen causing a slight swelling
as it is pumped from a loving heart that
still and always will remember you as my
now awakening soul wonders to itself as
it senses the familiar scent of another that
it once held ever lovingly close in its arms
then searching now for what seems like
forever for the love and happiness that
it used to know but since lost in a world of
deep emotional scars from others who never
could let them be for their own selfish needs
as the memories start playing like a broken
movie reel repeating the same scenes constantly
from one night of desperately wanted and
very much needed passionate love, when the bed
was soaked in your orgasmic sweat back in
a desperate time when two broken souls
who was so very lonely met filled with sorrow
and regrets both needing each other and left
all alone together yearning the touch of
another while r…

Please don't ever feed them

Please don't ever feed them
The hardest part of fighting your own demons
is when nobody sees you fall, you battle your
darkness day and night while giving it you're all
sometimes though you will win with no glory to
be found but when you lose there is nobody there
to help you stand back up tall for they have seen
the battles many times before, some you win some
you lose and even some you call a tie but they
all grow tired and bored with a demon that will
not die giving up hope you will win the war that
you now wage while fighting for your life, addiction
shall destroy us all if we do not get some help
for what they use against this plague always falls
just a few steps short and praying every night does
wonders for a soul but cannot help those that roll
a big fat bowl and God himself cannot help us
In this war that we now wage as whole families are
being decimated by the thousands day after day
I am afraid to say that the battle we fight against
these demons we must fight them on o…

Fighting Demons

Fighting Demons

Fighting demons every day is a never-ending battle
I would certainly say, the darkness comes in like the
night no matter what you try you cannot stop it so
you just need to fight, depression, PTSD, addiction,
mental illness, they all are an enemy that comes from
inside as your emotions are fighting each other in a world
war me. no matter what your battle is it will be long and
bloody but you can fight it, I do know this, it is a war
that you must fight all alone deep down in your mind
heart and soul, No one knows how hard the battles will
rage, you cannot escape it as two fighters locked inside
a cage, day and night the war goes on the more you fight
the more It will come on, Throwing fist into empty air
fighting an enemy that just is not there, fighting demons
is on one front, while friends and family are on separate
one, they say take a pill or it is not really real, why don't you
chill or just smile even still are words that we hear
that push us into the darkness further stil…