The little angel Astrafina

The little angel Astrafina

I was sitting alone on the couch downstairs

one evening after Ryder went to bed, feeling

very restless somewhere in my soul and in

my head, when I notice a moth flying around

I blinked for a split second then the saw the

a moth was flying slower, I do not mean as in

just hanging around I mean its wings were

starting to slow down like time itself was

causing everything around me to suddenly go

into slow motion until there was scarcely any

movement at all, even though I was the same,

it did not scare me by any means for I have felt

this many times in the last five years so I knew

I was expecting a visit from someone or someone's

high above, I smiled because I had not seen my

friends in quite a while so I waited and waited

until I felt something staring at me, so I said

out loud "I know that you are here for I can feel

the clean cool breeze on my skin coming from

your beautiful wings and I can smell that sweet

aroma coming from back home up in heaven as

there are now teardrops forming in my eyes neither

you or I can deny which means that God in all his

wonderful glory has sent you here to help protect

me, I fear that I already know why, and of course

I can hear you deep within my mind, what I mean

is I could hear you coming when you left the

gates of heaven louder than any time before, are

you surprised? I can also see you just past the

corner of my eye, so there is no sense in trying to

hide, I see angels all the time and I have from the

day I took my life and was sent back down here,

you are very beautiful but kind of young for a

guardian angel aren't you, where is my normal

ones? Oh, I see helping others who need them

more than me, so what is your name and why are

you here? Well, Astrafina it is nice to meet you,

I am sure that you already know my name, guess

you and I are kinds of the same since we both

fight all the demons in His name, amen. Oh mine

are very restless I can feel them getting stronger

everyday causing me to start to question so many

things like an addiction which keeps calling out my

name and it is getting stronger both night and day

saying come on just one more time, it also seems

to me that this world is becoming darker faster with

the break of each new day, kind of like the devil has

been working overtime, Astrfina looked at me and

smiled and giggled then said "oh I am not here to

protect you, you can do that already so very well, no

I am here as a brother as we will know each other well

One day for I will fight the wars and battles right next

to you and if need be to the very depths of hell, no not

right now or even tomorrow or the day after but

very soon, my friend, I am still in training yet I am very

strong the tales of you and Ryder have been sung

about in songs, but do not worry I will be ready when

it finally comes, besides my Father has not called you

back home, but it shall be very soon, Ryder is very

handsome and growing so very strong his heart is

good just like yours you have done such a wonderful

job, do not cry for him he will be just fine there are

many watching over him they or I should say evil will

not be able to touch him very soon, the bond between

the father and the son is stronger than anyone and

will always seek out the other in times of trouble

and one day you will see he will become a leader

of man in the final battles calling on you to help

him defeat the evil once and for all, I am sorry I can

feel the guilt and sadness coming from you for Michael

Bryan and Dakotah, believe me, they will come to under

stand why you did it and why they will finally understand

when God tells them when tears will fall upon the ground

your name will be mourned as they bury you in the

ground and your soul flys home to heaven, your words will

be read by the many as your boys get all the pennies,

they will grieve until the end of time. but fear not you will

see them during the war against evil as you appear every

night in their dreams and Ryder will be a great leader

as he will lead the last of the human bread in a push

to defeat the darkness for your bond is so strong you will

fight as one, angels and men fighting together next to

one another brother to brother lead by the father and son

then as looked over the moth once again started flying

at normal speed and the angel was gone, leaving me drained

but he made me start thinking and terror-filled my heart

so I went into the bedroom and gave Ryder a huge hug

it was not about a war, it was reminding me that my days

are numbered and I looked down at what I saw was not a baby

or a toddler any more no Ryder dean had grown into a

little man, then he screamed I am tired let me sleep you

big jerk, so I smiled and the fear disappeared, for I know

that when I go, he might be upset or sad but he was

going to be okay, after all, he has all of you to watch out

over him.

Poet Richard M Knittle

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