Demons

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Demons

These demons I fight I know are for real, 

from the scars on my heart to this pain 

that will not heal.

I lay in my bed but at night I am awake, 

for the dark ones have taken all of my 

dreams to forsake.

My fate has been sealed and with 

God's help I tried, but my world is 

now over as it fell fast to their side for

my entire life has been nothing but 

one day in hell, and because it meant

 nothing to me the faster I fell.

I fought back for my freedom and for

 the last of my sons, the fight for Ryder I 

beat easy but for addiction well it is still on.

I fought hard with the courage of his 

only son, but at the end of the battle 

I was still only one so

to all those friends that I have taken 

with me into heart, you have taught 

me that humanity deserves a new start

Please do not worry for me for I will never 

really be gone, all the poetry that I have

written for you, well they will carry on.

I hope that when you read them and that 

tear starts to call, it, is  okay to remember 

me so please let them all fall you see

for people like me, that are hurting 

from inside, we were born into the 

darkness without the light side.

We hide our deep sadness from those 

that we love, and could never be 

treated by any doctor’s glove.

All the smiles that we share, and laughs 

we hand out, well that only mask our 

loneliness as we look for a way out.

We still love our left children so blame 

is theirs not, but we tried all the choices 

and believe me we fought.

So if the darkness does not ever find you,

 do not be so quick to cast out, you 

should be thankful my friends that

 it missed you no doubt.

Robin Williams fought with demons,

 and he fought a good fight, but he 

lost his long battle with darkness, 

for him there was no light.

So, I say thank you to Robin for all 

the great laughs, you have been the

 light in our battles as we walk down 

the same path.

I personally will mourn you, as my

 demons may win, but as the gates 

of heaven open I will say “Nano Nano” 

as I walk on in.

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.

A Poet's Journey

Texas Poet Laureate Nominee 2016-2020