That was a long time ago

That was a long time ago

Once upon a time I lived happily 

ever after but that was a long

time ago, way back when I still 

believed in fairy tales and wishing 

on falling stars, no Santa Claus 

or even love, or magic of any

kind, no family nor friends or

even the end since it feels like 

that day will never come, matter 

of fact I do not believe in anything 

at all, as my life goes on day

after day as it gets darker with every one, i feel so lonely 

no matter who might be around 

I even try to smile but I forgot

what laughter was all about

nothing at all matters to me I

cannot even care all the things 

I liked to do i do not want to do 

anymore and the people i cared 

for the most in my life well they 

do not care for me at all, I

look in the mirror and what do I see a stranger standing

their so I close my eyes to the

darkness where the nightmares 

all begin showing me visions

of a life that I have no idea,

with smiling babies, and fun times I wish that I was there,

so i start to cry but no teardrops 

will fall unlike the rain that has 

been for as long as i can recall, 

so i lay in my bed where I

spend most of my day, staring 

out at an empty wall except a

few broken frames with photographs 

that are torn or missing, I wonder 

for a moment what day it was

but who am I kidding I could

not tell the month or year or

where I am even living, I have

been alone in the darkness

for so long now that the light

will hurt my eyes, I have gotten used to the quite and

even the sound of the cars

passing me by, besides i never need to worry again about being used or the pain of a broken heart inside.

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.

A Poet's Journey