Feeling like a Stone
Sitting on the dirty cold floor
feeling like you are all alone staring
at a wall just wanting to cry and
break down praying to your
God that you want to come home it feels like there is nothing left
here for you anymore so
you just want to die you do not
know where you are going or
what you are going to do
yesterday is already forgotten
soon today will be too as tomarrow
may just never come
you just want to feel better
and you want to know why
do I feel the way I do I mean
why can I not stop crying
why do I feel all so alone
why can I not smile anymore
why do I feel like a rock just
a stone
what am I afraid of
where has everyone gone
I mean I think I remember
the happy times but it has
been so damn very long
why can anyone hear me
when I yell out my silent screams
the one i asked for help with
or was it all a nightmare or
was it all a bad dream
I can not keep on going
like the way it is now
I know i need to get better
but somebody please
show me the hell how
I have tried every pill that
they gave me but they
never last for all that very long
before the darkness
and those sad feelings come
back and this time they
are even more strong
the hope I had is now fading
and my strength is
no longer there I feel like
I am drowning in the ocean
of sorrow, regret, and deep despair
One day I will feel better
and these feelings of darkness
and gloom will finally end
either by God grace and his glory, a doctor, or on its own because if
not I will end it on my terms when I am ready with my own hands
Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.
A #Poets Journey
Texas Poet Laureate Nominee 2016-2020
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