Saying Goodbye

I will never forget you, and I can never forgive you, you were my sunshine in the light of my day and moonlight in the dark of the night, you were my shelter in all the storms that we faced, you were the beacon in my life, and the end of my life you have been tears falling, face smiling, laughter and the anger, the sadness, happiness, the good times the bad times we have the poorest of the poor and richest of the rich you are the Ying to my yang the black to my white night to my day and sun to the moon, and this is the hardest thing that I will ever do:
 
Saying Goodbye
In my life that has been filled
with so much sorrow
and many regrets there
are so many moments that
are embedded in my memories
that I cannot and will never forget
you see while we have been together 
I have finally faced all of the skeletons 
that I have hid away in the dark and
hidden closets that fill my mixed up
mind and I have beaten all of my
demons that have been haunting
me for a very long time and I am
now finally okay with my past
that I regretted all this time for
I have found through all my ups and
downs in life That you will find all
of your inner strength in all of the
times and the moments of your
weakness and that you will truly
never know just how much strength
you really have until you survive the
strongest of the storms yet still stand
up on your two feet and walk
out of dark alive and for once after
all these long and hard many years
I have finally been able to let go
of all the hate and anger that had
been filling my heart so full and now
have come to a place where I can
find peace with you and more
importantly solitude within my own
self, I have been weighed down
with the pain of a broken heart from
your love that was never mine from
the start I have been strapped with
a soul that cries out in anger for
the loneliness of a life that it has had
to bare while carrying the pain
of missing you, I have been lost
somewhere in the recesses of my
mind while trapped in all of the 
memories of our littered past for
way too long, but please know
that it has not been easy and that
as the tears are falling they are
forming a river of goodbyes, so
please know that I will always love
you but it is time that I start loving
me more so I am going forward
with what is left of my shattered life
it is time that I can finally say that
I am moving on it is time that I turn
away from you without looking
back it is time that I say goodbye.

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.
A #Poets Journey
©2016

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