A dream is just a dream

Sometimes a dream is just that a dream

a made-up movie that your mind creates

to give us a sense of what life could be

or might be it is not necessarily the way

your life should be and maybe I should

have left it that just a dream to fade away

into obscurity, just like me and you someday

I hope that maybe one day we can forgive 

each other for not being the person we 

wanted one another to be, in my case, a 

fantasy somebody to show me what it 

was like to have someone give love to me. 

I gave you everything, even some things I 

was not sure I had to give you while you 

gave very little in return to me. I only just 

wanted to be the one you had chosen 

when everyone else wanted you to. Too 

be your proverbial knight in shining armor, 

a fairytale that ended happily ever after

but I guess we all have a tendency to 

ignore the truths believing the untruths 

so we could feel at least a temporary 

relief from a cold and lonely world, so we 

choose happiness we know in our gut

will never last because it is better than 

never being happy at all, but you know 

what really makes me mad is that we 

didn't get the chance to become what 

we both wanted us to be, and that's a 

damn shame. It's a downright calamity,

do you not agree? The problem with 

humanity is we have become numb 

from the sins of society, we think that

a little kiss and a hug, then say the 

words I love you will make it so like 

they are casting a spell to keep the 

status quo while our hearts and soul

disagree causing confusion of epic

proportion in the continuity of what 

genuine love is supposed to be when

in reality, love only works if two people

agree to work hard, on trust for with

out it, love will wither away and die

to be replaced with hate and distrust

and jealousy. Marriage is something

you should never take lightly, for it is 

a two-way street where you both meet

somewhere in the middle, it is a kind of

give and take contract bound together 

in all aspects of life, where you have 

each other's back, not a one-way path 

believing people who may be on crack 

plotting against you because they 

messed up what they had and are 

jealous of what you have. There are 

no bad guys in this story. It is not a 

battle between good and evil, the fault 

is not yours or mine, it is ours and it 

is what it is, there is no blame, neither 

one of us should feel shame we tried 

our best; we failed together. Is it over? 

Well, I guess that is up to you, depends

what you want to do, if you want to know

what I think or how I feel I still love you 

If anybody knows, I know marriage is 

difficult, that is the truth, especially when 

you have had your ass kicked in what

I call "love's war". That's a fact and in 

our situation, it makes it even harder 

because you're not here, but then we 

have another little man who loves you 

unconditionally telling someone that 

he doesn't have a mother that his 

They locked mom up in prison and 

cannot wait until she comes home. 

So what should I tell him? If your 

wanting an apology, then I apologize. 

Just know that I will always and forever

love you until my bitter end and comes 

then I will love you even more, so 

when I am up there looking down on 

you. I will smile, remembering when 

I held you in my arms the day you 

made a dream come true that day 

we said I do, so thank you for giving

this old man a purpose, at least for

a little while and giving me a reason 

to get better, you reminded me, that 

I do not need to be alone and my 

life was not a waste of time and 

if I could go back to that phone I 

would say yes all over again. I love

you and forever, always will.

Richard M Knittle Jr.

A Poet's Journey