I could see it in your eyes

I could see it in your eyes

When you and I had met that very first time

I knew right then and there you were a 

angel and I needed to make you mine

I had that feeling when we talked

for I could see it in your eyes I could

feel your soul trying so hard reaching out

in a silent scream calling out at me to get 

the attention of mine and indeed it did yet

it kept quiet and so afraid to speak only

whispering quiet secrets in my heart that

you were the one for me but since it chose

another in error it did not want to make another

mistake but I knew what he had felt for the hole

left by loneliness felt so much smaller after that

one meeting that you and I had I also could

sense that you felt it as well as your heart 

beats harder and faster in passion than most 

at least of anyone I have ever met so far in my life

 I have always had an eye on you and planned 

on exploring that avenue at some time but 

my better lack of judgment caught me off guard 

as fell back through the sands of time, trying 

to hide all the pain and my fear like most

people drink well I am afraid that vice is not 

mine, in all the relationships I have ever had

I give everything that I can that is wonderful

I know that for sure but never getting anything

back hurts like hell, being used lied to and stepped

on I should change my name to Matt as a door

sorry I tried to make you laugh, I am just trying

in my way which is all I know to do that I am

so very broken I am not sure anymore if I can ever

heal, you are an angel with a halo that is a 

little bit woman with the heart of a saint

that has been through some wars, your heart still

beats and has far from being broke a fighter in

love who never gives up, I feel something special

in my heart and lonely soul that you are also

very blessed and have a purpose down here on

this broken and dying planet that we call earth

what it may be you may or may not know quite yet

If you listen to the sounds made by the wind and

the rain or the clouds in the skies as they pass you

on by you will hear very clearly as God speaks 

to us, as He does all the time He will tell what He

needs of you when he feels it is time God uses

those of us whose souls can never be beat 

beaten bruised and battered yes but we always

stand back up. I feel very strongly that you and I

met not by luck or chance but design by our fate

please be patient with me I am trying to still heal

hell I do not know if I still can even feel and dating

do people still go out? what do you wear nowadays

or say to each other or even know what to do 

in this day in age of hooking up with as many 

people that you could, flowers, candy do I still open

doors dinner movie or me a fool on a dancing floor?

breakfast dinner both or more can I kiss you at the

end when I walk you to your door? you see I was not

joking when I said I have no idea because I am now

as you can tell by all of my words that I am just an old

crazy damn old fool.

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.

A Poet's Journey