We fell back in time

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We fell back in time

As feelings of deep despair and guilt come over 

me like I am being hit very hard and dragged down 

under the cold dark ocean water by giant 

waves of sheer loneliness and sorrow, 

so deep that I am now gasping for a little

air as my lungs are filling with salty water  fighting  

hard not to swallow trying hard to taste the last 

of the air that surrounds me upon my dry cracked 

lips as I start to slowly fall back weighed down by 

the heavy chains made from the many years of 

my regret that fills my broken heart just as all the 

sadness fills my empty soul refusing to let go as 

the dark clouds that are surrounding me following 

my every move I make blocking out the light of the sun I see 

as teardrops fall every night and day causing the 

pain of everything wrong in my life with no end in 

sight as I feel like no one cares and I am alone I 

cannot take this feeling much longer I feel as if maybe I will take 

my own life to escape it as I wonder would anyone even

care? Would anybody know, am I all alone? Is there

anybody home? Can you hear my cries?  Am I 

dead or alive is it day or night I wanna just give up 

this fight maybe it's time to let go the pain I feel is so

unbearable I cannot take it anymore please let me go 

God just take me home 

I wrote that about depression because it is just one way that it makes me feel, never smiling anymore and nothing ever feels real, you do not live life as you just go through it while tears fall every day never knowing why as laughter is forgotten as it left to find a place to die. 

 Empathy will do that as mine is very active 

all the time I can feel the sadness from all those 

around me causing my depression to feel as if it 

may never end again so much sadness in this 

world that it  feels like death may have already 

won as the darkness comes in closer a little more 

each day surrounding us like we are cattle while 

it is controlling our daily lives as we disappear 

slowly one by one consumed by all our fears and 

destroyed by our sins until the day we are all gone 

becoming a ghost of a dead world, the grew

from the first day causing humanity to grow and 

evolve to where it is today were it

seems that we have gone

just as far as we can and now

we are starting to devolve

falling backward through the 

ends of time losing sight

of the light becoming more

cold at heart unable to love anyone else at all 

leaving empty shells of so-called human beings 

who care whereof nothing but themselves it 

is all about me while we fall back in time to the 

land of Adam and eve wearing nothing 

on but a tiny fig leaf a snake and a

tree where it all first begin but

this time maybe Adam could

be more a man grab the snake

off the tree grab the hand of Eve

and walk away from the tree where would 

we be now you think if EVE never ate the fruit

but instead, BBQ'd the snake. 

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.

A Poet's Journey