I once believed
I USED TO BELIEVE I used to believe for a while that all there was to life was bills I could not pay and broken hearts rolling a bowl to stay up for days and popping pills to go to sleep at night, pulling licks and turning tricks while stealing food sleeping on the cold hard streets as I wake up living in all of my nightmares and broken dreams telling lies never knowing the truth hating God for my mistakes I mean why not get high to forget today, blaming everyone else for my past hoping tomorrow would never last never mattered where I was going, always forgetting where I have been shaking my head with every chance I get as I hide from the bad guys while running away from police closing my eyes whenever I could and hoping they would never open again, but it did not start that way you know it never does and today I hope it is not the way it ends. You wonder when it all started well so do I for I cannot tell as I am not really sure my memories are real that was long ago in a different wor...