I am not perfect

I am not perfect I never have

been as I have danced with

the Devil more times than most men, I have seen life

watching as my sons were born and even faced death 

when I killed for war I had a

dream come true once then 

lost it in the same breath 

I have even been to heaven 

or rather right outside and I

have talked, with God even some of his angels, I would have to say that it is the 

most beautiful place that I have ever seen or will ever 

be with the brightest vibrant

colors against the purple hues, the smell is so sweet

incredibly amazing I cannot ever forget because the Angel's have the same smell when they come around it is almost like a very sweet smelling flower or maybe even fruit that does not grow

anywhere around. You see I

L took my own life and I died, but God said to me that he understood and why, but it was not my time yet, I should

not have come that I was still needed down here before my life was up so while I sobbed

uncontrollably he touched my face and then placed His hand on my head and said 

to me "You are who you have

always been, listen and look

deep down within yourself you need to hear what is being said, you need keep 

your son safe, before this, I was a nonbeliever but now

I truly believe in God and all of his Angels and even the 

Demons and hell I am no

longer afraid of death, for I now know where I have been and where I will be going. 

For God only uses those

souls who can never be beat

In either life or death, I just thought that you would like 

to know who I really am and why it is I write and I now it is

time to make a stand and take back what is mine, so

open up your heart, your

mind, and soul to find all of

those places you can go that you never even knew existed before, all you need to do is

show him a little faith, give him a chance by opening up your heart, believe in yourself as he believes in you. 

Amen. 

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.

A Poet's Journey