How are you today

How are you today?

I am actually in a place right

at this very moment that I

feel way too often nowadays

always finding myself wallowing

around in a deep sorrow and

agonizing regret while living

in a paralyzing life of self-pity

always wanting to believe in

something when I already

know it is always and forever

going to be just another lie.

Believing in fairy tales and

once upon a time, wishing

on falling stars and happily

ever afters then trying to

not to go broke falling down

a wishing well that people

really can change. Then,

when they don't I start

feeling like I deserve to feel

the way I do, like I really am

worthless and that maybe I

don't deserve to be loved

by anyone at all, while being

abused just to amuse an

addict with no heart or even

soul at all yet after all of the

pain of broken hearts and

shattered souls I will always

and forever truly believe that

love and I mean true through

eternity will win over hate

and this may still be but for

me, this loves war is over for

I now know that sometimes

it is better to walk away from

from the battle so I can win

the war someday.

Poet Richard M Knittle Jr.

A #Poets Journey